Everything I plan for, look forward to, must you destroy it? must you ruin it? i had enough of it. I seriously had. why? why must you do this kinda thing to me? you know what? you are selfish, self centered, incorrigible, attitude problem, good for nothing BRAT! and all the time you would be sorry, sorry. i tolerated you for the longest time. do you understand anything? BITCH. eat shit. must i always give in to you? MUST I?! do you even have respect for me as your elder sister? do you? you always have it your way. what bout me? do you even think about how i feel? well i bet all the question i asked, your answer is no. CORRECT? and you may think i want to play your girly polly dolls or your stupid my little pony. but i don't. so back off!

THIS IS DEDICATED TO MY FREAKIN' BRATTY SISTER, SAMANTHA CHIN LI TING.

I feel sooooooooo damn upset because of her. she may think i'm happy wanting to play with her. but deep deep down in me, it feel like i'm held captive in her room. unable to move freely. unable to have something i long for and that very thing is freedom. yes freedom. i'm locked up in this place my sister calls her bedroom. but to me it feels like a terrible place called jail. this is so self pity, but i have been keeping all this bottled up in my mind. until today i can't take it. not any more. i'm trying sooo soooooo hard to be a good sister to her. but she makes it soo difficult. like a new obstacles ahead of me.. sometimes i feel like giving up. but God keep giving me the strenght to over come this. i hope and pray that she will not be like that. I'm crying so badly Lord. please help cos i know you would.