Gosh, I don't know where to start. everything seems like a dream. But face it, it is reality. I feel so tired, physically and emotionally. My Grandpa, was the best Grandpa I ever had. He just left like that.

After science test left school. went home, washed up, ate lunch and waited for the private cab to pick my mom, sam and I. On the way to Malaysia, the ride was cold. It was raining and the damn air con kept blowing against my face. when we reached my grandma's place, we met our dad there. I was too late, my grandpa was already in the church, i didn't even get to touch him. He means alot to me. I miss him. I went my grandpa back! after checking into the hotel, we went to saving grace presbyterian church. there, my grandpa laid in the coffin. my cousin, kaixuan, was brought up by my grandparents. It was such a major blow to him. I guess he can't take it.

The next day, we went to a place to burn him. I cried so much my eyes went sore. He just left like that.

Bye, i'll miss you.

OH.MY.GOSH. WHEN THE HELL WILL MY DAMN SISTER SHUT UP? She nothing better to do is it? cry so much. she not scared her damn eyeballs pop out is it? HER DAMN CRYING IS MAKING ME REALLY PISSED. oh gosh. do you know what? she came home crying and now hearing her cry makes me feel like slapping her. how I wish I was the younger sister. As the older sister, I have to give in to my sister. I HATE IT! SHUT UP. SHUT UP. OH JUST SHUT UP. spare my ears. Gosh, i have no damn idea why she is crying. SHUT UP.

I feel like my whole life is filled with 'what if 's. like for example, what if anti-Christ comes? what will happen to my family? friends? me? what if parmish goes? will there still be a clique? what if parmish goes and forget us? what if comes back to Singapore as a whole new person? what if i can never see parmish again? I HATE ' WHAT IF'S
i feel like crying!

Okay this is like total randomness, I have nothing to post except that the fact that Common test is like so rush! And plus the school just gave us the fact sheet. how would I have enough time to put down any notes for geog and Chinese. I hate Chinese. why would anyone invent such a torturous language? oh talking about chinese. I got 12.5 out of 50 for the chinese class test. LIKE oh.my.gosh. LOL. But i got 7 out of 20 for maths! that is sad. and this could be like my second time failing a maths test! stupid factorisation. i can't even understand it.

okay.. I soooo totally HATE my cousin. when I left Malaysia, she started gossiping about me. so it is my turn! she told my cousin sarah and seth that my sister and I were so rude. spoiled. and uncivilised?! okay people may call me spoiled. but i call it just showing more love to your children. and me rude? obviously not. and UNCIVILISED? like what?! she thought uncivilised means modern, cool, and awesome. like wth? it is common sense that people don't use big words when they don't know what the meaning is.

lets talk about her! she is a hypocrite. she has hair that looks like a mushroom/helmet and it is DRY! and looking at her face, just makes me want to puke. she wears old fashion clothes. I don't know how she got them it must have been hand-me-downs. she nags. she doesn't wash her face because her mom doesn't know how to buy facial wash. thats why her face is filled with pimples. she wears sports shoes with dresses. and her dress has puffy sleeves. LIKE OH.MY. GOSH. THAT IS SO OLD. she is afraid of the show PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN. that pig! and she crossed the line when she sayed i was uncivilised.

enough crapping about her. going to church soon. LOL. miss it sooooo much!