I feel so numb all over. Maybe because I'm just too darn happy!
I got into NETT. Wee~
At first I didn't get in, I was so desperate to get in. I didn't know what to do anymore.

Then I turn to God, I asked Him to help me, I told Him How desperate I was. And I also told Him that I believe in him 101%
Then He told me to write a letter to Mdm Lee, and to write about why I should get into NETT. And I did. After writing it, I told God that this was all I can do, and I will leave everything to him.

In Chapel, they played a clip and the lady said that God will see us through. I said to myself:" God, time for you to see me through." After that, I passed my letter to Mdm Lee. She read it and said that she can help me but there is a very very slim chance. I was so sad, but still i didn't give up believing in God.

After school, I went to Bishan to eat at pizzahut with my usuals. As i was eating, I recieved a call form my mom, she said I got into NETT! I was sooo happy! I cried tears of joy:) It felt really awesome that God listen to me and answered my prayers.

God is so good, in fact, He is beyond awesome!I owe it all to God.

It has been pretty boring for me now.
I can't seem to find something to do. Sometimes, I'll be on the comp or somethimes watching tv or playing PSP or WII. I really have nothing to do.

Last night I couldn't sleep so I went to accompany my dad and watch tv. So we were switching between the Football channel and some channel.
Haha, Then went to bed at 12.45 But i still tossed and turn for 15mins? Then I finally slept!

I'm like so darn lazy to go out. Bleh. Then amazingly, my mom manage to drag me out of the house. I borrowed a book today. UGH, I still don't know what to do. It's boring, very boring.

I'm tired too.

Why?

I have been doing alot of thinkig and reflecting lately.
And in conclusion, I have many thoughts and questions with no answer running about in my head.
Like for example, why does God still love us after how much we have done to hurt him?
Or what is Life? Can we really change our future or is it a scripted destiny written by God?
What if the world ends before I amnage to live my life to the fullest?
I really can't think of the answers. really.

And I feel that I keep lying to myself. When things are just not right, I keep telling myself it is. I tell these little white lies so awesomely, that I feel for it.


Great, I lied to myself and I fell for it.

We had CIP today. We had to collect rubbish but ironically, we collected seashells. And Miss tang scolded us for collecting seashells. And she added that she will not give us CIP points if we don't collect any rubbish so we put sand in our bag. wee~


Later went home, and my daddy came home! yay! No more waking up so early to leave the house at 6.35 shit. For dinner, daddy brought us to some Korean restaurant at Novena square to celebrate my mom's birthday. the soup got MSG, make my jaw very numb and tight. freak hell.

Later walked around mommy bought a bag and my dad totally embarrassed me. He put on girl sunglasses. OMG.



I'm no longer in dilemma.

I hate global warming, it's so hot. It feels like we're in an oven. when will it rain?

Today was okay I guess, Jolyn and Jacey didn't come.
We had some talk about smoking and a very very very boring talk about the traffic. And chapel is really cold.
There's a HUGE difference when you step out of the chapel.

Sara is damn irritating. whole day irritate me.
And I had to pick up litter thanks to him.

I guess that's my day. And tomorrow have CIP. Ugh, not nice.
It's going to be hot and there isn't much litter.
so we'll be walking aimlessly around in the toxic filled beach.
What a day it'll be tomorrow!

I'm hungry.
I got alot to post but, I'm lazy.

Art was kinda boring. I finished mine in maybe one and a half hours? I was stoning and talking to sara and sleeping in that hour that was left. Then i kena scolded by teacher not to talk. It's all sara's fault! then I feel asleep. got woken up by Ms Ng. UGH. And i didn't bring my Ez-link card! and my phone was in my pocket the whole time in the classromm.
Later trained down to city hall. Window shopped alot, haha. Jolyn and i was like going gahgah over stuffs. hahaha. It felt as if Jolyn and I was in our own world.
I reached home at 2+ I think?
then had piano, don't wish to elaborate on it.
Tomorrow is the last paper. wee~


You're currently in dilemma, wake up Isabelle. Make up your mind now.

My daddy is in China now. I wonder how he is.
Today seems perfect somehow. I went to sunday service today. He said that Singapore is well known for education and also labelling people.
In school, we're labelled as normal and to make things worse, we're labelled as normal acadamic and normal technical. There is nothing wrong. But why do we have to study 5 years when express students get to study 4 years? We are learning the same topics, the same subjects. we aren't that differnt right?
so that pastor said that we as youths cannot be labelled and be told we're useless or stupid.
I kinda agree.
Lost Generation by Jonathan Reed

I am part of a lost generation
and I refuse to believe that
I can change the world
I realize this may be a shock but
“Happiness comes from within.”
is a lie, and
“Money will make me happy.”
So in 30 years I will tell my children
they are not the most important thing in my life
My employer will know that
I have my priorities straight because
work
is more important than
family
I tell you this
Once upon a time
Families stayed together
but this will not be true in my era
This is a quick fix society
Experts tell me
30 years from now, I will be celebrating the 10th anniversary of my divorce
I do not concede that
I will live in a country of my own making
In the future
Environmental destruction will be the norm
No longer can it be said that
My peers and I care about this earth
It will be evident that
My generation is apathetic and lethargic
It is foolish to presume that
There is hope.

And all of this will come true unless we choose to reverse it .
Read the message, then read it again in reverse.

awesome isn't it?

I'M SICK! It feels like it is hot then cold then hot again. And now I'm having this terrible headache and I'm coughing non-stop. My face is so hot and my hands really really cold. And I'm having flu..
Everything is not going the way i expect things to be. How am i suppose to study chinese and history in this damn condition.



God, my plane is crashing,
I'm doing everything I can.
Please Lord, I'm so scared,
so confuse.
Be my safe landing.